woweee
Mood:  a-ok
hello!! i havent updated this in a while,, im sorry bout that guys... well anyways,, a lot has happened,, school, dance, gymnastics, movie, direct with the movie, bobby's record deal, rehearsals, fraternities!! lol!!!! well yea thats all im going to say right now,, TOODLES!!!

grrrrrrrr
Mood:  hug me
WHY DOES EVERYG UY THAT I KNOW HAVE TO FUCKIN DRINK??? AND THEN CALL ME???OMG ITS GETTING ANNOYING.. ok,,, got that off my chest,, so yea,, my life is grand.. my birthday is tomorrow and wut do i get to do on my birthday?? absolutly nothing... GOODIE!! WOOPY!! IM SO EXCITED!!! NOT!! grrr, this sux,, life sucks.... why does my life have to suck every school year??? im in college,, my life is supposed to take a new swing and be better or something but no,,, it nsux!!! there are things in my life that dont suck,, such as: i found a great guy that i like, i have lots of friends, i started gymnastics again, i still dance,, im out of highschool..... here is the twist to everything..... i dont get to talk to the guy that i like much because katrina (my only exuse to go to uh) has found a guy and we always hang with him now, most of my friends are in different cities,, or at uh where i dont get to see them too often,,,, i suck in gymnastics now,, i have never been too great in dance,, and even tho college is great,, i still have to wake up freakishly early to go to school.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....... yea,, so life in general sucks.. i need loike such a amjor hug right now it's not even funny... i wish i had a guy or something... i wanted to go and visit ppl this weekend,, and i guess i could have gone by my self and visited those ppl,, but no i have to have someone go with me and so i dont go visit anyone and dont get to go see any of my friends... this sucks... im such a god damn chicken lately.. fuck it,, i dont care anymore... im gonna visit ppl soon,,, im gonna just get over my feer of being alone and traveling alone,,, its not like i would have to go too far anyways.. ok my mind is set,, i'll visit ppl so weekend soon,,, if you want me to visit you,, tell me... i will need directions.. ok,, so im gonna shut up now,, because im sure ppl are either gonna feel bad b/c im not in the best of moods,, or b/c they got me into this mood.. dont feel bad either way,, i just need to say something,, and as some of you ppls know,, i saythings better when i write them down.. this is close enough.. well i will update later.. bye

I yiy yiy yiy yiyyyyyyyyyyyy
Mood:  crushed out
boys are wierd,, that's all i have to say to that.. my birthday is the 7th!!! i am so excited,, im gonna be 19 thow :( im getting old!!!!!! grrrrrrr..... well anyways,, i want to like go on a road trip (a shirt one) and visit ppls,, but it all depends on the day (either sat. or monday) they are available/if they even are... yea.. sunday there is a football game at u of h,, its uh vs. rice,, should be fun,,, katrina and i are going with our fraternity friends!!!! lol!!! so yea should be fun.. anyways,,, well i guess if you want me to visit ya let me know on here/email/phone and tell me which day is more prefered (sunday or monday) well hope to hear from you ppls!!! lol!!!

song to sing
Now Playing: song to sing -hanson
"Good-bye four leaf clovers
Hello gone awry
Don't cry the fight ain't over
Unless you let it pass you by

chorus
I'm looking for a song to sing
Looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So I might find a heart to follow
I've never been just longing for your loving
I've never been just wearing down to nothing
I've never been just looking for a reason
So that maybe you'll be thinking of me
Oh...
You'll be thinking of me

All that I have found in reason
Is reason just to not believe
When all that you're left is treason
Is treason just to let it be

I'm looking for a song to sing
Looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So that I might find a heart to follow
I've never been just longing for your loving
I've never been just wearing down to nothing
I've never been just looking for a reason
So that maybe you'll be thinking of...

The blue yonder dreams and second hand shoes
You're so far gone that you live to lose
And it's too late to go home all alone
Your the tar in that old cigar
And the worn out cable on a cable car
And you're too tired to admit you've got to choose

I'm looking for a song to sing
Looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So I might find a heart to follow
I've never been just longing for your loving
I've never been just wearing down to nothing
I've never been just looking for a reason
So that maybe you'll be thinking of me
Oh...
You'll be thinking of me

Don't wander through this glassy surface
Expecting to find more than me
'Cause what am I without a purpose
But a lone mirage to see

I'm looking for a song to sing
Looking for a friend to borrow
I'm looking for my radio
So I might find a heart to follow
I've never been just longing for your loving
I've never been just wearing down to nothing
I've never been just looking for a reason
So that maybe you'll be thinking of me
Oh...
You'll be thinking of me

You'll be thinking of me"


sry,, i love that song.. lol!!! its kinda how i feel... lol!! anyways,, im gonna shut up now.. peace!!

CONFUZILATION
Mood:  hug me
yea,, that is a great word.. lol!! guys are totally confuzing to me.. there are like 1 or 2 guys that seem like they like me or w/e but then on other days totally dont even seem to notice me,, its totally confusing.. what should i do about that?? (lol! like anyone reads this anymore anyways).. it like puts a small hinder on my good days because i think about things they have said for both sides of the way they seem to feel bout me.. arggg.. what ever.. i give up.. lol!! (no not on guys just the ones that are confusing,) i'll expect the worst so then that way if something does happen on the good side,, then it'll be even more special,, and if nothing happens i cant be let down.. it is so hard for me to lose hope/faith in things that i want to happen.. but im just going to try so hard to do so because im getting tired of being let down.. anyways,, i started doing a gymnastics class again today!! that was fun,, i totally suck at it now.. all i can do is tumble and do some stuff on beam,, but bars,, hahahaha,, dont make me laugh.. lol!! we didnt vault tofay,, but omg when we did conditioning i totally thought i was gonna die.. lol!! im soooooooooo out of shape.. well anyways,, im gonna go,, i am getting snaped at by ppl today,,, what am i?? the human target for ppl to snap at on their shitty days?? anyways,, im out..

TOODLES!!!

MOVIE TIME!!!!
Mood:  special
omg, yall have to see the movie "Friday Night Lights"!!! it will be a total awsome movie.. i got to be an extra in it,, and it was soooo much fun.. i got up graded to be the stand in for the girl actress.. like i stood in the places that she would stand in so they could see the angle and ligthing they want.. and i got to talk with the actors and stuff like that.... like they would come to me to chat,,, it was sooooooo awsome!!!!! i learned so much because of that!!! oh yea,,, lucas black is in it,, christian (idk the last name).. he was lindsy in the movie angel..... a girl named amber, and lee tompson young are the young stares well the lindsy guy is older..... the main dude is the guy that played the cousin of brad pitt in troy!!!!! he is really nice.. he was helping the wordrobe ppl load up all the extra's costumes... he and the amber girl talked to me the most.l.. omg i just want to go back to the hole thing... i got pictures with them and stuff like that!!! YAY!!!!! well i think im gonna shut up now... i'll update later.. remember go see the movie Friday Night Lights!!!! it comes out october 15th!!!! peace ppl!!!

nothin to do
Mood:  caffeinated
BOREDUM HATH STRICKEN ME!!!!! lol!! im so bored right now,,, i have nothing to do.. every one has left me to go to another city or state today for college,, so my social life has now gone down the drain.. andrew is in town, and his brother, anthony, will be in town,, and sissy (katrina) is always gonna be in h-town but on the other sid of it,, so that means further to drive but she is gonna be the only in h-town with me,, which is fine,, but non of my guys are gonna be here.. oh well, w/e.. i give up,, lol!! not really give up, i have nothing to give up right now.. omg,, we have started to kind of work on stuff for nutcracker!!! YAY!! im like the only excited for that one (like out of m company) but im so ready to start rehearsals.. that means (when we start really rehearsing) i wont be getting home till almost 10 every night... i love to perform and to rehears,, it is soooooooo much fun!!!! yea well anyways,, im gonna go now.. just thought i'd update for you ppl that come to this thing.. alrighty then!!! im out!!!!

im in love
Mood:  crushed out
i love shackespear's work!! they keep quoting him in the movie "the prince and i" its great,, i love it!!! lol!!! anyways,, back to the movie...

FORGET ABOUT IT
Mood:  not sure
omg,, im just gonna go ahead and say forget about my hope(lessness) because it is not important.. ppl have been asking me about it (yes ppl,, multiple ppl) and yea,, im not gonna say but several were kinda like almost on the right track.. but it really is not a big thing i promise.. dont worry.. its like the second i say one negative thing every one has to feel so much pitty.. am i that positive and that happy of a person all of the time.. w/e.. anyways, im glad all of yall care,, but some of yall really make it more than it is.. i'd delete it from my site so no one else could see that entry but where is the truth in that?? anywyas.. i went to a party up at lloyds crib!! lol!! it was fun till every one was extremely drunk.. (cept sissy and myself we dont drink or do drugs or any of it). yea it was great having random guys come up to me and talk to me.. i have had guys approch me sence florida (guys that i dont know).. it was great.. yea well im gonna go now,, i have a head ache.. i'll update later.. toodles!!!

hope- who needs it
hmm,, i have been thinking about stuff lately.. sissy knows wut it is i have been thinking about.. it is just seeming like hope of something i want than wut is going to actually happen.. idk,, hope sometimes can just bring ppl to a total let down,, i kind of am getting a let down.. well it is now seeming.. i am one of those ppl that always has hope and sometimes really beleives that things will be the way that hoped it would.. im not going to say wut it is that im hoping because,, yea, i have my reasons... well anyways... im gonna attempt to stop hoping for wut i have been,, because im afraid of getting let down from it again.. only sissy shall know.. so im gonna shut up.... and do the questions thingy from the previous entry.. ok??? toodles!!!